Boy 1 & 2

It's hard to be a girl you have crushes people who like you people you wished liked you and all that kind of stuff. My first crush turned out well but the thing was that it was my moms boyfriends sun and i found out that he liked we ended up hanging out with eachouther at our school fund raiser it was really fun and ha bought me a poster that said always want to be with you it was sweet and a bookmark that said love being with you it was really fun till his mother came and yelled at him for not using his money for food. Later on like A few months later his friend mentioned that I was his boyfriend to someone so I went up and asked him what I'm his what and he told me that my crush considered me as his girlfriend and this was always in elementary school but it was still sweet. He was a little taller then me a year older and a school year older then me it was perfect. He had the perfect name to his name was Tucker and we would write love notes to each other and things like that and after school one day he wrote me a l ether asking if I liked him and I said why do you like me and he said yes so I said yes and well that was the end of that conversation but ya so a year came and went and I found out that my mom and I were going to move back to hawaii and our so called relationship ended rite then and there.My mom and his dad broke up because of his jerk dad and years past and tuckers mom was diagnosed with cancer and so my mom and her became good friends because my mom had cancer twice and survived so she helped her through it and they were talking on the phone one day and tuckers mom said that next time we went over there that there would be a kiss from Tucker waiting from me that's what my mom told me she said so I was like mom why did you tell her about me and Tucker and she said she didn't that tucker I guess told his mom he liked me so I got all happy and that made me feel good about 10 months passed and one day my mom tried to call tuckers mom she didn't call back for a while she called again no answer my mom found out that her friend died that tuckers mom died I hadn't talked to Tucker for about a year and a half and since I left I haven't talked to him so I don't know how he's doing but I hope he's ok because I really did and still do care about him. ElementAry came and went and then middle school a new boy the one i talked about earlier well my friend dated him he is in high school and she is in seventh grade or was and they were ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm not even going to get into that one so there's my boy problems and crushes major ones at least fir when I was younger I still do love you tucker with all my heart and I hope you are doing ok.

It's hard to say it

It's hard to say but I hate my father he left me and my mother four times. I see him maybe once a year now but thats not the point. He is such an idiot for leaving for leaving his daughter and his wife he left us for someone els. I know it's hard to say but at the Sam time it's not hard to say that I do hate my father. He left us four times four stupid times for one person he met online. Yes I do hate my father and now that I think about it it's not hard to say.

Why 4 T L

So let's see this post is about the title. Why it is what it is.Well when I was about 1 I would say my dad left me and my mom the first time of four times. It ended when I was 6 about and then the next thing I knew I was flying to Oregon to see my pregnant step mom my step sister and my dad what a change that was. So since then I would go and see him which brings me to my first flight by myself an official UM. I was so excited to go for the first time by myself I got all dressed up nice and ready to go and we got through security into the gates about to leave and well I was surprised I got on the plane for about 2,3 min. I started to ball I was so scared so I basically blew of my dad because I was scared but o well there's always next time so eventually I got my guts and got on the plane after that it was a pice a cake. Next thing I knew I was at the hospital waiting to here the news of my new little sister. I finally got to go in and see her. When I first looked into her eyes they were so blue it was like a rushing waterfall crisp and fresh. Then I heard her voice the voice of a queen the voice that to me was like a lions roar so loud but yet so beautiful. And that wasn't even half of it her silk smooth skin her big beautiful lips it was probably the most beautiful thing I have and will ever see. So until next time I hope you enjoyed.

Time two

So I'm back and well So were still with my crush he came over one night and we were plain a video game and I told him he jinkst it because I lost every time he would say something like a jinks I would loose rite but every time he would either but his hand on my arm or hug me which was really cute. This was before he told my friend he liked me so it was nice, I men I liked it.well ok I hope you liked this post. Bye.=)

First of many

Well let's see this is my first time blogging so well I hope you like it.this blog isn't really about one thing it's about my whole life so I must warn you it will be random.so let's get stated.I'm going to start from when I was eleven.i had a crush and well I think he liked me but I wasn't sure at the time.so he came over we would hang out but one day my other friend came over and she's still one of my really good friends at the moment but she was spending the night that night and he came over with his dad but my friend is also kin a nosey so she wrote him a note asking him if he likes me yes or no.he checked yes. when she told me I was so excited I almost. Started to cry.so when he was there everything was different. But here's the thing I didn't tell you a couple of days before that he txt me asking if my cousin liked him it broke my heart. So I txt my cousin asking if she liked him hoping she would say no because that's what she told me before but this time she said yes but I can't because no boy can get between us which is such crap.the thing is that my cousin always wanted what I had always and she always treated me like I was soooooo much younger then her which I wasn't So back to the night where he told my friend he liked me. One thing my friend didn't tell me was he said he did but he can't because his dad liked my mom and his dad told him he can't like me so I was still happy because he liked me hurra.So that was my first blog and well I am pretty happy with it I hope you are to if you have any comments who ever is reading this I would really like it. Thank you.=)